we seem to have so much in common.
this blogging thing is already so addictive, but frustrating. there are so many little things that i wish i could write but i'm too scared of the outcome, which is why i think people write books; so that they can create fictitious characters to bear the brute of such deliberations and evil.
i wish that it was easier to walk up to someone and say 'hi, you've made me feel like shit for the last year but i miss you so much' or 'you're an amazing friend, i'm so scared that you'll soon realise how much you don't need me'.
these are the types of things that need to be said, and it annoys me so much how i lack the confidence to actually say them. i must seem like the most horrible person, and i'm sure it's true, but i don't think such evil things about others all the time.
today is probably the first day in a long time that has gone smoothly, i don't feel upset about anything really. it's the type of thing that really brightens my outlook- i don't have any proper lessons tomorrow, and although i ate way too much crap today i'm not feeling all that angry about it and i think i might have strengthened a friendship or two..
this weekend should be fair good, if all runs smoothly (which i'm sure it won't). i can already forsee drama or upset on saturday, and i'd rather avoid that please. friday night is fringe, which i'm really looking forward too, it's quite nice to enjoy being seventeen without the guilt of family or schoolwork constantly pulling you down.
i think i may go paint some clowns, or drink some cordial because i'm feeling that this blog may be becoming unnecessarily long and overdramatic, farewell 'followers'.
i wish that it was easier to walk up to someone and say 'hi, you've made me feel like shit for the last year but i miss you so much' or 'you're an amazing friend, i'm so scared that you'll soon realise how much you don't need me'.
these are the types of things that need to be said, and it annoys me so much how i lack the confidence to actually say them. i must seem like the most horrible person, and i'm sure it's true, but i don't think such evil things about others all the time.
today is probably the first day in a long time that has gone smoothly, i don't feel upset about anything really. it's the type of thing that really brightens my outlook- i don't have any proper lessons tomorrow, and although i ate way too much crap today i'm not feeling all that angry about it and i think i might have strengthened a friendship or two..
this weekend should be fair good, if all runs smoothly (which i'm sure it won't). i can already forsee drama or upset on saturday, and i'd rather avoid that please. friday night is fringe, which i'm really looking forward too, it's quite nice to enjoy being seventeen without the guilt of family or schoolwork constantly pulling you down.
i think i may go paint some clowns, or drink some cordial because i'm feeling that this blog may be becoming unnecessarily long and overdramatic, farewell 'followers'.
I like this blogging thing.
ReplyDeleteI can be brutally honest and say anything I want.
I know my friends probably won't take the time to read it.
and if they do, i'll just say it's the honest truth.
I think you Lydia, I really do.
and that picture of us up there, is really flattering.