it's important to me,

I'm becoming increasingly anxious. Of course, school, family, friends etc. are major causes of this, but I'm finding that certain issues are becoming considerately pressing. In a way, I am becoming obsessive.
Basically, I need time to start a website, to sell jewellery, vintage goods and antiques like I've been planning for over a year now.
I need time to write. and write. and write.
I feel like I am going crazy.




Razors pain you, rivers are damp.
Acids stain you, and drugs cause cramps.
Guns aren't lawful, nooses give.
Gas smells awful, you might as well live.

hi, i'm Lydia.

- I constantly feel inferior
- I have various scars- including two on my neck and three on my head
- I bought my holga years before it was 'cool'
- I really enjoy it wen people say that they have a band that saved their life and I believe it can happen- I had two.
- I'm fairly cynical, but it seems like all the people who surround me also are.
- It really annoys me when all the power goes out, and my alarm clock resets
- My favourite colour has always been green, and my favourite number has always been 5.
- My favourite part of the day is coffee-time
- I've given up understanding (or caring for) relationships- platonic or sexual
- I spend too much time complaining, or bitching, or on facebook
- I like to stick to my routines, people who disrupt them anger me.
-I'm seriously considering re-signing up to myspace, just so i can have Annuh Phu as my number one again.
- I've done much i regret in my life, which is depressing considering my age. I often convince myself that i will change or that i will improve but it seems I continually set myself up for failure.
- I can never be bothered with homework.
- I idolize Amanda Fucking Palmer, because of who she is, and what she stands for.
- I hate going to sleep late at night in my house, it's too scary down my side.
- I'm glad that I never moved in with my dad.
-There's someone i can't wait to see again, hopefully i won't have to wait until it's too late.
- I never seem to have money- I have to stop buying so much fucking food and coffee.
- I miss no-doz
- I miss getting straight A's
- I hate being lazy
- I love Merlin and Dexter
- I write too many lists
- I collect postcards, and i also have a large china doll collection
- Elephant has to be one of my favourite movies.
-My second and fourth real crushes have never ended.
- I really like beer
- WOMAD, BDO & Soundwave are always the best parts of the year.
- I hate tumblr- how do you delete that shit?
- I fail to practice self control, ever.
- SEE, I MAKE TOO MANY LISTS!


ps, spending time bitching with Annuh makes me happy beyond comprehension, even if it doesn't seem it.

circus mirrors and pot smoke-

- it happened again.